see you soon in the end of Dec.
_T2, efiniti uxi super 200 / cafe shop "Megane"
...more...
我知道 能得到的是越來越少了 但是我還在努力
努力填滿 努力靠近 努力得到多一點 努力再像他一點
等到哪天放手了 看開了 或許你我都長大了 也懂了
10' Aug 28
理由或許找的到 但是或許找不到那個最關鍵的
然而最近丟了一個問題出來 要怎麼分類人
有錢人 / 沒錢人 高學歷 / 低學歷 好人 / 壞人 還有什麼？
最近可能把這個問題的答案較偏向於 有人天生就會發光
有人天生就有比較好的天分天賦 天生來到這個世界就會眾所矚目
誰不想發光 答案給否定的都保有存疑的可信度
肯定又會有這麼一股聲音告訴你 做自己就好啦
？
最近否定掉好多事情 什麼好像都做不好或是不對的
但是很慘的是好像也沒有人會在乎
小さいな
從宇宙看進來,就是這麼一回事吧
或許連 一個人影 都看不到的渺小
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最近只要被問到「以後想要/打算 做什麼？」 我的火氣就上來
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今天在回程的路上 想了好久今年想給自己買個什麼生日禮物 但是我卻想不出來那個「現在不買不行」 或是 「夠有紀念價值」的一個貴重禮物 或許是開始懂了賺錢 開始體悟到要存錢
接著 又繼續想了 等到未來三四十歲 生日這種東西 都不需要被提到 也不需要在筆記本上大大的畫上一記號了
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每次旅行都來的正是時候 最近真的需要時間 / 空間 靜下來 思考 / 找點靈感 了
_ nikon f3, nikkor 50mm f1.4, kodak ektar100
at midnight.
煩到一種境界 我們選擇了一點微醺和薄弱的燈光
雖然只是短暫的美好 但是似乎效果帶來非凡的影響
還有好多蠢事還沒兌現
譬如說我們要素顏穿著最臘榻的衣服 前往紅豆食府用餐
還要使用數不完的一元 去結賬
*
有時候我真的不知道用 心 說的話
到底當事人會不會真的記得 或是 真的去承諾
尤其是當你很努力
但是別人好像都感受不到 甚至是以「能躲就躲」的心態來應付
有多感歎哪
*
後來我發現
我並不是羨慕別人的文字有多美 或是 多有造詣
只是我很羨慕他們有勇氣把自己的想法一五一十地簡單地 或是 能解讀的方式表達出來。
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有時候是真的很想多打一些來抒發掉一直被壓抑的
但是
不想被鼓勵 不想被同情 不想被會錯意 不想被透明化 不想被期待 不想被認為失落
等等的種種因素
終究選擇了淺淺地帶過去
或是
努力地使用一種沒有解讀能力的方式來敘述
所以最明白的最私密的可能還是在那本筆記本裡
但是過度的緊張 過度的害怕哪天它會被誰揭露
還是保留了很多
其實事情可能無比的簡單
但還是選擇使用看不懂的語言解釋或紀錄
沒有和誰透露太多情緒 或是 對什麼事情的看法
我是這麼認為的
但是似乎常常不知不覺中就告訴了某一個人某件隱密的事情
久了以後 每個人就會有一件只有他知道的事情
也就是說完全沒了祕密了
其實不知道到底在煩什麼
明明早就知道 不可能綁住一個人
但是它離開了 還是會難過 還是會感歎 還是會回憶
又或是
很想綁住一個人 但是這根本是一件不可能的事情
因為本來它就不在這裡 不屬於這裡 只是一相情願而已
about summer
溼黏的空氣，又把冬天送走一次，
和喜愛的冰冷空氣揮手說再見是一件多捨不得的事情。
每當想到夏天總會讓我想起那有幾千首歌的ipod裡唯一那首舒服的旋律和歌詞：
// Stacey Kent - I Wish I Could Go Traveling Again
I wish I could go traveling again
It feels like this summer will never end
And I've had such good offers from several of my friends
I wish I could go travelling again
It feels like this summer will never end
And I've had such good offers from several of my friends
I wish I could go travelling again
I want to sit in my shades, sipping my latte
Beneath the awning of a famous cafe
Jet-lagged and with our luggage gone astray
I wish I could go travelling again
Beneath the awning of a famous cafe
Jet-lagged and with our luggage gone astray
I wish I could go travelling again
I want a waiter to give us a reprimand
In a language neither of us understand
While we argue about the customs of the land
I wish I could go travelling again
In a language neither of us understand
While we argue about the customs of the land
I wish I could go travelling again
I want to sit in traffic anxious about our plane
While your blase comments drive me half insane
I want to dash for shelter with you through the tropical rain
I wish I could go travelling again
While your blase comments drive me half insane
I want to dash for shelter with you through the tropical rain
I wish I could go travelling again
I want to be awakened by a faulty fire alarm
In an overpriced hotel devoid of charm
Then fall asleep again back in your arms
I wish I could go travelling again
In an overpriced hotel devoid of charm
Then fall asleep again back in your arms
I wish I could go travelling again
But how can I ever go travelling again
When I know I'll just keep remembering again
When I know I'll just be gathering again
Reminders to break my heart
When I know I'll just keep remembering again
When I know I'll just be gathering again
Reminders to break my heart
I wish I could go travelling again
It feels like this summer will never end
And I've had such good offers from several of my friends
I wish I could go travelling again
It feels like this summer will never end
And I've had such good offers from several of my friends
I wish I could go travelling again
● natura classica, fuji natura1600
●● nikon f3, nikkor 50mm f1.4, kodak portra400nc, yoshimi-chan
forget it
it's ridiculous, no one cares,
they don't know the result even don't care the result.
there's no perfect, so something must be sacrificed.
but the ridiculous thing is no one cares.
only keep pecking your wound.
alone, along, with the music.
be :: stronger.
_Nikon f3, Nikkor 50mm f1.4, kodak portra400vc
its March!
everything is going to start and carry on,
not only the class at school but also the project that i cooperate with roommates.
lots of things happened in this winter vacation,
some are still familiar and clear to me, some are indistinct.
now they've been in my notebook already.
gonna take this all to greet the next.
＿ Nikon F3, Nikkor 50mm f1.4, fuji proplus100, taiwan tainan
10' Feb 23
sunshine is back, finally,
so i waked up naturally in today's morning.
what a good day! :D
10' Feb 18
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natura classica, kodak portra400nc, @ japan
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失溫的狀態，雨水的濕氣凝結了所有，
嘴巴張開那一刻，霧氣隨口而出。
有時不小心衝動點時，話語就與霧氣融在一起，
彷彿也無法分辨哪個是霧氣哪個是話語，
偏偏霧氣卻不是重點，也沒人理會，
抽絲剝繭地變成只剩下話語。
或許是話語和話語有共通的碼可以被解開，
而其實那些霧氣也和霧氣擁有共通的碼而悄悄地進行溝通。
低於人類聽不到的赫茲，不重要，
但是聽的到的，又有幾分地珍惜？
所必須的超出太多，相較之下就少了點珍惜。
開始幻想當世界沒有「視覺」，人類蛻變成只剩下「聽覺」，
世界會變成怎麼樣？
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沒道理的頭和尾，只是一般般的筆記，
也不用想破頭的思考，只是嘴砲一下而已。
Happy birthday :)
Happy birthday to you, it seems the birthday card haven't been sent to your hands yet... |o|
*the right one is that we celebrated her birthday in advance. those 2 frames are the presents that we prepared. then, that cake tiramisu is freaking delicious, was made by our friend :p
2010. Feb. 2
polaroid SLR680, 600 film, TICK restaurant
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